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Infuriated February 27, 2008

Filed under: on me — Janek @ 09:34
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So, yesterday was distress. Today, I’m mad. I want to see the entire state government, both sides, sacked, and told not to bother coming back.
Why?

Public Transport:

Power:

Roads:

Health, education, and every other facet of their role. It’s so infuriating when the government ignores the people. I would like to propose a new tagline for the Iemma Government: “Public Transport, we’ve never had it so bad.”

Specifically today, the most irritating parts have been the north-west rail link and the fact that, even with all of this, A THIRD of people in NSW still support Iemma. With that in mind, I would like to ask who this third of people are? Do they live in bubbles? We have a train system that doesn’t work properly, a ticket system that isn’t integrated, a road system which is packed with cars that aren’t going anywhere, a health system eternally on the brink of collapse, an education system where funds are unfairly distributed, and they want to see off power so that they don’t have to deal with an aging infrastructure that is totally environmentally un-friendly.

I’m sure that with a bit of thinking, we can find one good thing that they have done. Maybe.

I may be becoming increasingly cynical, of course, but the more I learn about governments, the more I see that they just don’t work. They claim to be the representatives of the people, but they are totally out of touch. The opposition is a useless waste of time that merely opposes everything the government says and has no prerogative of its own. No other political party seems to have any say, because the population are stuck on one of the same two tracks: Liberal or Labor. Both parties are lining their own pockets.

Then we have the crap like the Cross-City Tunnel and the Lane Cove Tunnel. Now they want to fix up the tragic Victoria Road with another lane for the bridge over Iron Cove. They’re currently working on another bridge over at Alford’s Point. Do the government not see how they are just shifting the traffic problems, and not providing solutions that the people want? Hundreds marched a few weeks ago, locals and the like, expressing how they don’t want another bridge over at Iron Cove, a waste of $150M. The government said “Oh, but we’ll build it anyway”.

Anyway, my finger is beginning to hurt from excessive ranting.

 

Infuriated February 27, 2008

Filed under: on the daily grind — Janek @ 09:34

So, yesterday was distress. Today, I’m mad. I want to see the entire state government, both sides, sacked, and told not to bother coming back.
Why?

Public Transport:

Power:

Roads:

Health, education, and every other facet of their role. It’s so infuriating when the government ignores the people. I would like to propose a new tagline for the Iemma Government: “Public Transport, we’ve never had it so bad.”

Specifically today, the most irritating parts have been the north-west rail link and the fact that, even with all of this, A THIRD of people in NSW still support Iemma. With that in mind, I would like to ask who this third of people are? Do they live in bubbles? We have a train system that doesn’t work properly, a ticket system that isn’t integrated, a road system which is packed with cars that aren’t going anywhere, a health system eternally on the brink of collapse, an education system where funds are unfairly distributed, and they want to see off power so that they don’t have to deal with an aging infrastructure that is totally environmentally un-friendly.

I’m sure that with a bit of thinking, we can find one good thing that they have done. Maybe.

I may be becoming increasingly cynical, of course, but the more I learn about governments, the more I see that they just don’t work. They claim to be the representatives of the people, but they are totally out of touch. The opposition is a useless waste of time that merely opposes everything the government says and has no prerogative of its own. No other political party seems to have any say, because the population are stuck on one of the same two tracks: Liberal or Labor. Both parties are lining their own pockets.

Then we have the crap like the Cross-City Tunnel and the Lane Cove Tunnel. Now they want to fix up the tragic Victoria Road with another lane for the bridge over Iron Cove. They’re currently working on another bridge over at Alford’s Point. Do the government not see how they are just shifting the traffic problems, and not providing solutions that the people want? Hundreds marched a few weeks ago, locals and the like, expressing how they don’t want another bridge over at Iron Cove, a waste of $150M. The government said “Oh, but we’ll build it anyway”.

Anyway, my finger is beginning to hurt from excessive ranting.

 

Distressed February 26, 2008

Filed under: on me — Janek @ 22:44
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So, I was with a close friend of mine for coffee yesterday, when he received a message to urgently call his Heart Specialist. Next thing, he’s got an emergency appointment for today with a doctor for whom the waiting list is usually 6-7 months. He promised to message me with the results this afternoon.

I have spent a relatively sleepless night, and then a restless day today. One doesn’t usually get emergency appointments because they have heartburn. Especially this morning, and then later this evening, I was becoming increasingly concerned and distressed. I was hoping for a message or call by 4 or 5. I carried my phone around constantly.

I was off to the cinema at 6.30 to see the mediocre, but musically brillaint, August Rush (which I have had in my mind as Autumn Fall for the last few days for some reason). Still no call. I come out of the cinema at 8, still no call. Can’t get through to him. Can’t get through to another friend. Can’t get through to his flatmate. By 8.15, I was envisaging a bedside vigil at RPA, and almost in tears to the tunes of Love Song Dedications.

At 8.45, another friend finally returned my call. She had been at dinner. He was at the cinema. He’s got another appointment for two month’s time, and they’re just going to monitor his unspecified ailment.

I half felt like killing him for my worry, whilst the other half of me is glad I’m not scheduling in a funeral for next week. I’m sure he just forgot, but AARRGHH!

 

Distressed February 26, 2008

Filed under: on being unwell,on my friends — Janek @ 22:44

So, I was with a close friend of mine for coffee yesterday, when he received a message to urgently call his Heart Specialist. Next thing, he’s got an emergency appointment for today with a doctor for whom the waiting list is usually 6-7 months. He promised to message me with the results this afternoon.

I have spent a relatively sleepless night, and then a restless day today. One doesn’t usually get emergency appointments because they have heartburn. Especially this morning, and then later this evening, I was becoming increasingly concerned and distressed. I was hoping for a message or call by 4 or 5. I carried my phone around constantly.

I was off to the cinema at 6.30 to see the mediocre, but musically brillaint, August Rush (which I have had in my mind as Autumn Fall for the last few days for some reason). Still no call. I come out of the cinema at 8, still no call. Can’t get through to him. Can’t get through to another friend. Can’t get through to his flatmate. By 8.15, I was envisaging a bedside vigil at RPA, and almost in tears to the tunes of Love Song Dedications.

At 8.45, another friend finally returned my call. She had been at dinner. He was at the cinema. He’s got another appointment for two month’s time, and they’re just going to monitor his unspecified ailment.

I half felt like killing him for my worry, whilst the other half of me is glad I’m not scheduling in a funeral for next week. I’m sure he just forgot, but AARRGHH!

 

Mardi Gras February 25, 2008

Filed under: on me — Janek @ 10:07
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Yes, ladies and gentlemen, it’s that time of year again. It’s been referred to as “gay christmas”, that special night on which the queens come forth and have their rule over Oxford Street noticed. They frolic up and down, half naked, making out with anything that moves, they rev their motorbikes as they roar along, they make obscure political comments. It’s Mardi Gras this coming Saturday night, and this year, I’m making a stand.

What the fuck is he on about, you might well wonder. Well, this:

and this:

and this:

Now, don’t get me wrong. I enjoy partying. I find men sexy. And, as for standing up for rights, I’m right there. But, I will not be supporting Mardi Gras this year.

On June 24, 1969, a group of gay and transgendered people in New York rebelled against the oppressive police force. This small event was called The Stonewall Riots, and was the first step in the long process in the search for equality and the end of discrimination against the GLBTI… etc., or simply queer community.

In 1978, on the 9th anniversary of these riots, a protest march was held in Sydney to commemorate the events and the plight of the queer community in Australia. Homosexuality was illegal in NSW until 1984. In 1979, the event was held again, and was referred to as the Sydney Gay Mardi Gras. These events were far more solemn occasions, heavy with significance, and worked towards making a point.

I have only been twice to Mardi Gras before, the parade in 2006 and then the after party in 2007. The sight of hundreds of half-naked men and women dancing down the street in 2006, poking fun at Dick Cheney’s mis-firing gun, and Kate Moss’ drug-taking, whilst Molly Meldrum also frolicked his way up town, and I wondered what the point of Mardi Gras was. I took little notice of it at the time, though, mostly as I was with someone (who later that night, over coffee, told me he was told not to date me. Yeah, good times), and everyone was having this great time dancing.

Last year, a 21st kept me from the parade, but a male acquaintance (who referred to me as his bf), dragged me off to the after party, filled will high and drunk men (including this acquaintance) gyrating in a hot Hordern to the vibes of Boy George. This male acquaintance, however, complained about the heat inside, and the night had me paying $100 to lie on the grass outside because that is all he wanted to do. Nonetheless, the scene was reminiscent of perhaps a NYE party (or Arq on a regular night), and seemed hardly fitting. Then again, I was so tangled up in my own affairs I didn’t think about it.

This year, an opportunity was placed before me, and several friends were insistent that I go on the Cross-Campus Student Float. As “Children of the Revolution”, we would be thrust forth before the flocking thousands, celebrating being gay in a world that is still oppressive and doesn’t afford same-sex relationships equal weighting.

This brings me, then, to my point. Why am I making a stand? Three reasons:

  1. Because Mardi Gras has forgotten why it began. Most people won’t agree with me, I know that. People argue that it is still a key part of the year, it is still politically relevant, that the community takes notice. I say that this has stopped becoming a protest against the plight of the queer community, and has rather just become an excuse to get drunk and/or high in the street. The powers that be don’t look at the Mardi Gras parade and go “Oh, you know, they want to get married, let’s let them do it”. The community-at-large doesn’t know that Stonewall is more than a bar on Oxford Street. Hundred have died, from discrimination, from bashing, from AIDS, and people are dancing in the street!
  2. Because Mardi Gras doesn’t affect the right people. My father is a classic Liberal voter. Big-L Liberal. Voted for the Liberal Party at the last election, and was very displeased that Rudd won. He is the sort of person the message of the Mardi Gras should be targeted at: “We are people too”. However, he refers to it as “that poofta parade”, and wouldn’t pay it heed if he mistakenly turned down Oxford Street next Saturday night. Why isn’t the message reaching these people? Because, they see it as a gay dance down the centre of town, not as a political statement. Yes, there are those people who go and support it. These are people who would be there to support the queer community regardless.
  3. Because Mardi Gras is filled with everything that is wrong with the gay community. I hate Stonewall, the bar on Oxford Street, because it is filled with pretentious drunk gits. In Arq, you pay through the nose to be surrounded by pretentious high gits. At Mardi Gras, those pretentious gits flood the streets. They display promiscuity, muscular bodies, and well-tanned and oiled skin, or their leather harnesses, hairy bear chests, and bondage fetish. Where are the regular people? Or is this the gay world? We are filling the stereotype in this parade, displaying the queer communuty as being exactly what the less learned think it is, rather than showing that anyone can be gay. It’s an image I don’t want to associate with.

    So, yes. As I say, most people will try to correct me, prove it is politically relevant. But, until such time that I can be convinced otherwise, I’m going to stick to avoiding Mardi Gras.

 

Mardi Gras February 25, 2008

Filed under: on homophobia,on homosexuality — Janek @ 10:07

Yes, ladies and gentlemen, it’s that time of year again. It’s been referred to as “gay christmas”, that special night on which the queens come forth and have their rule over Oxford Street noticed. They frolic up and down, half naked, making out with anything that moves, they rev their motorbikes as they roar along, they make obscure political comments. It’s Mardi Gras this coming Saturday night, and this year, I’m making a stand.

What the fuck is he on about, you might well wonder. Well, this:

and this:

and this:

Now, don’t get me wrong. I enjoy partying. I find men sexy. And, as for standing up for rights, I’m right there. But, I will not be supporting Mardi Gras this year.

On June 24, 1969, a group of gay and transgendered people in New York rebelled against the oppressive police force. This small event was called The Stonewall Riots, and was the first step in the long process in the search for equality and the end of discrimination against the GLBTI… etc., or simply queer community.

In 1978, on the 9th anniversary of these riots, a protest march was held in Sydney to commemorate the events and the plight of the queer community in Australia. Homosexuality was illegal in NSW until 1984. In 1979, the event was held again, and was referred to as the Sydney Gay Mardi Gras. These events were far more solemn occasions, heavy with significance, and worked towards making a point.

I have only been twice to Mardi Gras before, the parade in 2006 and then the after party in 2007. The sight of hundreds of half-naked men and women dancing down the street in 2006, poking fun at Dick Cheney’s mis-firing gun, and Kate Moss’ drug-taking, whilst Molly Meldrum also frolicked his way up town, and I wondered what the point of Mardi Gras was. I took little notice of it at the time, though, mostly as I was with someone (who later that night, over coffee, told me he was told not to date me. Yeah, good times), and everyone was having this great time dancing.

Last year, a 21st kept me from the parade, but a male acquaintance (who referred to me as his bf), dragged me off to the after party, filled will high and drunk men (including this acquaintance) gyrating in a hot Hordern to the vibes of Boy George. This male acquaintance, however, complained about the heat inside, and the night had me paying $100 to lie on the grass outside because that is all he wanted to do. Nonetheless, the scene was reminiscent of perhaps a NYE party (or Arq on a regular night), and seemed hardly fitting. Then again, I was so tangled up in my own affairs I didn’t think about it.

This year, an opportunity was placed before me, and several friends were insistent that I go on the Cross-Campus Student Float. As “Children of the Revolution”, we would be thrust forth before the flocking thousands, celebrating being gay in a world that is still oppressive and doesn’t afford same-sex relationships equal weighting.

This brings me, then, to my point. Why am I making a stand? Three reasons:

  1. Because Mardi Gras has forgotten why it began. Most people won’t agree with me, I know that. People argue that it is still a key part of the year, it is still politically relevant, that the community takes notice. I say that this has stopped becoming a protest against the plight of the queer community, and has rather just become an excuse to get drunk and/or high in the street. The powers that be don’t look at the Mardi Gras parade and go “Oh, you know, they want to get married, let’s let them do it”. The community-at-large doesn’t know that Stonewall is more than a bar on Oxford Street. Hundred have died, from discrimination, from bashing, from AIDS, and people are dancing in the street!
  2. Because Mardi Gras doesn’t affect the right people. My father is a classic Liberal voter. Big-L Liberal. Voted for the Liberal Party at the last election, and was very displeased that Rudd won. He is the sort of person the message of the Mardi Gras should be targeted at: “We are people too”. However, he refers to it as “that poofta parade”, and wouldn’t pay it heed if he mistakenly turned down Oxford Street next Saturday night. Why isn’t the message reaching these people? Because, they see it as a gay dance down the centre of town, not as a political statement. Yes, there are those people who go and support it. These are people who would be there to support the queer community regardless.
  3. Because Mardi Gras is filled with everything that is wrong with the gay community. I hate Stonewall, the bar on Oxford Street, because it is filled with pretentious drunk gits. In Arq, you pay through the nose to be surrounded by pretentious high gits. At Mardi Gras, those pretentious gits flood the streets. They display promiscuity, muscular bodies, and well-tanned and oiled skin, or their leather harnesses, hairy bear chests, and bondage fetish. Where are the regular people? Or is this the gay world? We are filling the stereotype in this parade, displaying the queer communuty as being exactly what the less learned think it is, rather than showing that anyone can be gay. It’s an image I don’t want to associate with.So, yes. As I say, most people will try to correct me, prove it is politically relevant. But, until such time that I can be convinced otherwise, I’m going to stick to avoiding Mardi Gras.
 

The weekend of a thousand moods (Part 3) February 18, 2008

Filed under: on me — Janek @ 15:19
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So, now we reach Sunday. Oh, day of Sun!

Fair Day, of course. I’d never been before (and I call myself a gay man!), and must say I didn’t really enjoy the fair part of it. I dunno, nothing seemed to appeal to me, but I was a bit mopey as I lolled around, so I spent most of the time there standing at the Cross-Campus Stall talking to a variety of people I know.

Damon and I then went off to Tropfest, where we met a host of other friends of mine, who had “bagged” a spot for us. A very pleasant evening of drinking, nibbles, drinking, films, and drinking was had by all. Did I mention drinking? Ergh, so much alcohol.

Sunday was far less eventful on many fronts. But, you know, I spent time with various people I wish I spent more time with, and continued to be annoyed the Laming and their overt PDAs. Do we really need to see it, guys? Billy and I have decided on an intervetion if, after a year, they’re still like that.

When I got home, I got online where I was greated with Andrew. Now, Andrew would like to do things to me that are not decent to repeat here, even under privacy. I’ll let you guess what they might be, it’ll be more fun for you that way. Unfortunately for Andrew, my better judgement suggests I would be better off doing other things. It all lies a little too far into fantasy world, and I don’t know how to tell him to calm it down a bit. And the fact that he got fired by DJs when we used to work together was not an appealing factor either.

Today, I’ve had a headache all day. And, quite apparently, I’ve not been in the mood to do much real work, as evidenced by the fact I’ve now written three LJ entries. A friend of mine and I were joking about sex, and now I’m in the mood for it, too. Aarrghh! I have sex on the brain. Damn it!

 

Protected: The weekend of a thousand moods (Part 3) February 18, 2008

Filed under: Protected,on homosexuality,on my friends,on my history — Janek @ 15:19

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The weekend of a thousand moods (Part 2) February 18, 2008

Filed under: on me — Janek @ 14:02
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Continuing the saga, we now reach Saturday. Having had a shit end to the night on Friday, I was more than happy to spend all day in bed. Alas, no, my parents wanted me to join them at an auction. Not to buy the house, no, not at all. They wanted to watch the way the auctioneer operated, so that they would have some “advantage” in a few week’s time when the house they want to buy goes up for auction. The house they want to buy is in Illawong. I think I’ll move out rather than move down there. So fucking far away from everything and everyone. And my parents wonder why I never have anyone around.

Saturday moved on to the Hornsby Musical Society musical caberet night, which was most enjoyable. I love a good bit of caberet, and they covered some great musicals, like Wicked, Spamalot, and Annie, as well as the girls doing a great version of Shirley Bassey’s Hey Big Spender.

After the musical night, we all bundled into a car and thrashed off down to the city, via spacestation MacDonalds, where it took 40 minutes to get through the Drive Thru *shudders, at both Maccas and the spelling of “through”*. When we eventually arrived at the required destination, Zeta Bar, forked over the $20 cover charge, and found our posse, it was 11.30. We were tired, broke, and at a party full of drunk people.

Having heard many things about this person, DM, I sought him out and began a conversation. I had spoken with him on NYE, when he had demanded I was his midnight kiss, despite him being in Pyrmont and me being on my way to Wildlife. He was drunk then, too. I don’t usually get people demaning I kiss them. Anyway, we chatted, and I have never felt so inadequate or poor before in my life. He was going on about his handmade leather shoes, Hugo Boss belt, Armarni aftershave and how he lost a $1000 ring, but was having another one comissioned. Now, I could have discussed my multiple international holidays, or bragged about the fact that I have a life, but I didn’t. I mean, he seemed like a nice enough guy, and I enjoyed talking to him, but, really, please, just shut up. I don’t care that you have expensive clothing. You were cuter before you opened your mouth. Oh, and it didn’t help when the birthday girl leaned over to us and said “Are you two going to have sex now?”. *groan*.

DM then tried to drag me off to Stonewall. After Friday night, when I renewed my vow never to return there, I wasn’t keen on making the trek over and up Oxford Street a mere 24 hours later. Phoebe and DM’s ex, Chris, were also going over to the place, so I very kindly diverted my way around and dropped them off at the front door, despite them spending the whole trip trying to get me out. I then proceeded to drive home, and crashed into bed once more

 

Protected: The weekend of a thousand moods (Part 2) February 18, 2008

Filed under: Protected,on hooking up,on my friends,on the theatre — Janek @ 14:02

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